Have you found yourself avoiding certain things you once enjoyed, because of triggers that cause you to relive trauma? I know I did.
Maybe you take a different way home from work, that’s a few minutes longer? I did that one too.
Maybe you don’t watch certain tv shows or movies or listen to certain songs, because they are triggering? I’m guilty of that one too.
Maybe you’ve found yourself avoiding connecting and letting yourself feel happy, because feeling happy has turned into a trigger too? Unfortunately that was me as well.
My trust was destroyed in an instant, but I didn’t quit loving her in an instant. So I had an internal battle inside of me I just didn’t know what to do with.
I would’ve tried to make it work with the person who betrayed me. But the moment I found out about the betrayal is also the moment I found out we were done. Reconciliation wasn’t possible. She was moving on.
How have you managed those triggers?
When I went through my ordeal, before I met Morgan, I couldn’t escape them. I quickly realized that every other song on the radio was a sad love song.
I had to quit listening to music and started listening to other things in the car. And I couldn’t quit thinking about it. Even while sleeping I couldn’t escape it.
I didn’t sleep well for months, sometimes I’d wake up in the middle of the night thinking about it. It took a couple of years before I didn’t feel like a small part of me wasn’t dead inside. It deeply affected me. More than my parents divorce.
A lot of people lose their appetite, I didn’t do that, so I put on some weight.
It changed me, but changed me in ways I didn’t like. I felt insecure when I knew I wasn’t an insecure person. My friends couldn’t relate to what I had gone through so they got tired of me talking to them about it.
I felt very alone. Honestly didn’t know if I‘d ever feel normal or happy again. That period of time was the first time I felt seriously depressed, and depressed for a very extended period of time.
I didn’t trust any therapists, because I was a year out of graduate school and we never talked about feelings like this.
I didn’t want anybody to blame it on my parents divorce as the reason why I was taking this so hard so I didn’t go to therapy.
If I knew then what I know now about healing, things would have been radically different for me.
Worst of all I didn’t have a roadmap or anyone to guide me on what to do to heal.
I didn’t know where to turn. I never told my parents or any family members, because I was too embarrassed. The only people who knew were two friends.
I’ve found there is a path forward, that’s why we’re offering our Healing Broken Trust Workshop so you don’t have to heal alone.
You can remain anonymous, you can save time and make fewer mistakes that end up being costly blunders in the long run. And finally get the results you deserve.
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